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Disclaimer: This outtake is not edited. The lovely Bridgette Standford beta'd it for me. It is also written in present tense, as was the original. I simply ran out of time to change it to past tense. Blame NaNo. I do. This outtake is pure fluff, smut and tooth-decaying sweetness. Enjoy.
Sixty Five Hours Outtake
The Twelve Days of Christmas
14th December. On the first
day of Christmas...
Like
any other day, I sit in my office across from his. I can see him through the glass
walls that separate us; sometimes I watch him when he doesn't know I'm watching.
Cameron.
I
love to watch him when he thinks no one is looking.
Like
now.
He's
just got back from a sales brief – a meeting I thankfully didn't have to
attend, to find a neatly wrapped Christmas gift waiting on his desk.
I
watch as his brow furrows, for just a second, before he looks up at me.
I
smile, and he grins. And he starts to unwrap it, but then stops.
I
watch as he picks up his office phone, and my intercom button lights up.
"Excuse me, Mr. Hensley," his smooth voice speaks to me. "Would
this gift be...appropriate
for work?"
Oh,
he knows me so well. But it's not like I'd wrap up a sex toy for him to open at
work. "Why, yes it is appropriate," I say with a chuckle. "But I
like the way you think, Mr. Fletcher."
He
puts the phone back and grins at me through the glass walls.
He
unwraps the paper and pulls out the socks. There's three pairs; a naughty or nice
Santa pair, a cheeky Rudolph the reindeer pair and the naughty elf pair. He looks
up at me and grins; it's his eye-crinkling, full teeth grin that makes my heart
thump against my ribs.
This
is going to be so much fun.
15th December. On the second
day of Christmas...
Cameron
has a meeting with Bree from Accounts, so getting his second gift on his desk
is easy.
I
remembered how he'd told me of a book he'd read as a boy; he told me how it struck
a chord with him; how he'd loved it, and how he'd read it over and over, until it
fell apart.
The
Little Prince by Antione de Saint-Exupery.
It
turns out it's a popular book. But tracking down a first edition was a bitch. It
just so happens I'm talking on the phone with a client when he opens it. But watching
his face through the glass walls when he sees what it is is priceless.
Shock.
Awe. Disbelief. Love.
So
much fucking love.
I
clear my throat and ask the person on the phone – whose name has completely slipped
my mind – if they'd be so kind as to hold on a sec. I cover the receiver with my
hand at my chest. I swear there aren't two walls of glass between us. There
isn't an office buzzing with staff, phones, voices...
Just
Cameron. And me.
He
stares at me, and I can see him swallow. Then he mouths, "Thank you."
I
smile at him, tip my imaginary hat and mouth back to him, "You're
welcome."
16th December. On the third
day of Christmas...
Work
is busy; people want things finalized before Christmas, and they want
them finalized now. I might be one of those people.
I'm
pacing in my office with my phone to my ear. The multi-million dollar, snow-filled
view out the window would be considered beautiful by some, but I don't even
bother looking.
I'm
talking to the accounts director of a new client, who demanded to see my sales percentages
before he'd commit, who in all his infinite fucking wisdom is trying to tell me what will sell.
Me.
He's telling me what will and won't sell.
At
first I found it amusing. But he crossed the line when he told me he thought my
campaign was missing something.
And
that just pissed me off.
So
I'm pacing, telling Mr. I-know-fucking-squat, what it actually takes to sell
his company's technology in an already flooded market, in the middle of the
global financial crises.
I
turn to find Cameron standing at my door, leaning against the door frame, listening
to me rant at my client. He's holding his next wrapped Christmas gift in his hands,
and he's smiling at me.
I
bark into the phone. "You wanted brilliant when you came to Fletcher
Advertising, Mr. Tanner," I say, out of fucking patience. "And you got brilliant when you got me. Because
that's what I am, Mr. Tanner; I am brilliant."
Cameron
walks in, grins and sits at my desk. "It's true," he says quietly.
"You are."
I
can't help but smile. Mr. Tanner is grumbling something into the phone, but I
cut him off. "Mr. Tanner, quite frankly I'm surprised a man with your
expertise in figures is doubting my ability."
He
starts to apologize or make excuses or something, but I'm not listening.
"You've
seen my statistics," I interrupt. "You've seen how good I am at my
job. I'd appreciate if you'd now let me do my job, Mr. Tanner."
I
miss the old phones with the big heavy receivers. Because when you hung up on fuckwits
like Mr. Tanner, it was loud and satisfying; final.
These
new phones are pissy and soft – and the dumb fuck probably doesn't even know I
hung up on him. I don't want a pissy click. I want a resounding clunk.
"What's
wrong?" Cameron asks me, trying not to smile.
"The
phones don't clunk like they used to."
Cameron
snorts. "I meant with Mr. Tanner."
Oh.
I huff out a sigh. "That bean counter seems to think he knows more than me
about advertising."
Cameron
fakes a gasp. "The hide of him!"
I
scowl at him. But he smiles, and my anger and frustration fades away. I look at
the large, flat square gift he's holding. "Whatever do you have
there?" I ask with a grin.
He
smiles, and then he sings, "On the third day of Christmas, my true love
gave to me..."
I
laugh at him. "Oh, just open it."
He
tears at the wrapping paper, and when he sees what it is, he looks at me.
"Luc."
I
look at the two vintage LP vinyl records – Roberta Flack's The First Time I
Ever Saw Your Face, and Louis Armstrong's What a Wonderful World - the very two
albums he once mentioned as the one music experience to be heard on vinyl, only
he couldn't find them, or so Ben had told me.
He
looks at me. "How did you know?"
I
smile. "I'm brilliant, remember?"
December 17th. On the fourth
day of Christmas...
I
wake up to Cameron peeling back my eyelid. I gotta say, it's not overly
pleasant. "Urghwbngh," I huff at him. That's Lucas-speak for I-don't-fucking-like-mornings.
He really should know that by now.
He
chuckles, so I roll over away from him. "Mm mm."
He's
persistent and too fucking happy for whatever goddamn time it is. Even pulling
the blankets over my head doesn't deter him.
"But
," he whines. "It's the fourth day of Christmas..."
I
groan.
Really?
He
woke me up so I'd give him his next gift?
Ugh.
He
laughs and pulls the blankets down. "You started it."
"Coffee
first," I mumble.
The
blankets rustle, the bed dips and he's gone. I hear him take the steps and then
I hear him in the kitchen. I roll over, lean down and take his gift out from
under the bed.
When
he comes back with his peace offering of steaming caffeine, I'm leaning against
the headboard and have his gift on his pillow.
He
grins like a child, all excited and bouncy. He hands me the coffee and jumps onto
his side of the bed, making me nearly spill hot coffee all over me.
He
doesn't apologize. Hell, I don't even think he realized.
He
wiggles himself against the backboard with his present in his lap. And my too-early-in-the-morning-for-this-shit
attitude fades away when he looks at me and grins.
He's
really fucking beautiful.
I
chuckle and shake my head at him, and he tears into the wrapping. A slow smile spreads
across his face, and he flips through the pages of the book.
"I
didn't think it was appropriate for work," I explain.
He
chuckles. "Mmm, page twenty-seven looks interesting," he says,
holding the book up and tilting his head.
"Page
seventy-six is my personal favorite," I tell him, nonchalantly sipping my
coffee.
He
quickly turns the pages of The Gay Kama Sutra to page seventy-six. He looks at
the picture for a while, licks his lips and hums. "I can see why you'd
like it."
I
sip my coffee and smile.
Cameron
speaks without looking from the book. "Luc?"
"Yeah?"
"Put
your coffee down."
I
barely have time to put the mug on my bedside table before he does page seventy-six
to me, and when I think he couldn't possibly better it, he does page
twenty-seven.
Jesus.
I
spend the fourth day of Christmas in bed, certain of one thing…my boy sure can fuck.
December 18th. On the fifth
day of Christmas...
Cameron
sleeps in on Sunday, so waking up to find him still beside me is not altogether
uncommon. But him waking up to find me tying his wrists to the bed head is.
"Uh,
Luc?" he asks, still sleepy. "Babe, wattcha doing?"
When
both wrists are bound by silk ties to the top of the bed, I straddle him. I can
feel his morning wood against my ass, but I ignore it. For now.
I
put his next gift on his chest.
It's
a smallish box, not much bigger than my hand, but thicker.
He
grins, his eyes sparkle and he wriggles his fingers on his tie-bound hands.
"I can't undo it."
I
smile and turn the box over in my hands. "I get to open this one," I
tell him. "But believe me, this is a gift for you."
I
pull the ribbon, and the bow unravels. "Then again," I add, "it
really is a gift to me too."
Cameron
bites his bottom lip.
I
wiggle my ass over his lengthening cock, and he lifts his hips. I shake my head
at him, "Mm mm, not yet."
He
pouts, and it makes me grin.
I
tear off the wrapping paper, but don't really show him the box. He's trying to look
at the picture, trying to determine what it is, so I just rip it and pull out
his prize.
It's
a small, black, hand-held prostate vibrator. Similar to the wand, but with more
of a blunt hook and a little button on the end...to make it vibrate.
Because
that's what it does. It vibrates.
Cameron's
eyes widen, and he instinctively pulls on the restrains at his wrists. I throw
the discarded box to the floor and put the sex toy on his chest so he can feel the
weight of it. I lean down and whisper against his ear, "On the fifth day
of Christmas..."
He
shivers and huffs out a breath, so I lick his goose-fleshed skin, and kiss down
his chest, rolling his nipple between my teeth.
"Oh,
fuck," he groans.
"Oh,
I will," I tell him honestly.
I
pick up the prostate vibrator and press the button. The toy buzzes in my hand, and
his eyes pop. "Oh, fuck," he says again.
"Oh,
I will," I repeat.
With
the device still switched on, I press it against his chest, his nipple and
trail it down to his navel. It tickles his skin, rippling goose-flesh in its
wake, and he writhes underneath it.
I
lick the length of his cock and then press the vibrating toy against the base
of his cock, and he bucks at the sensation. "Fuck," he grunts, but he
widens his legs.
He
wants more.
I
never could deny him.
I
rub his hole with a little lube; while I rub the vibrating toy over his
perenium, I slip my fingertip in his ass.
But
then I press the button to turn the vibrations off.
He
throws his head forward, looking at me like I've lost my fucking mind.
"Don't fucking stop," he whines at me.
I
grin and lick the tip of his cock. When I take him into my mouth, his head
falls back to the pillow, and he's moaning almost incoherently that I should
never, ever stop.
I
almost laugh. As if I ever fucking would.
But
I don't want him to come just yet.
I
release his cock only to take his balls into my mouth, one at a time and
tonguing between them. His moans of, "Please, please, Baby, please,"
tell me he's ready.
I
slip the head of the vibrator into his ass, slowly, slowly, pressing,
searching. And his body tells me when it hits my target.
I
pump his cock and watch in wonder as he writhes and arches, and moans and begs.
And
then I turn the vibrator on.
His
entire body convulses, his hips leave the bed and his head pushes back, exposing
his corded neck. His mouth is open in a silent scream, and I watch as his cock
spills violently onto his stomach.
Oh
my, fucking God.
There
is nothing more spectacular than watching him cum.
And
there is nothing that turns me on more.
I
lean over him, take both our cocks in my hand and using his cum as a lube, I pump
us both. He's still hard and throbbing, twitching in my hand and he's almost convulsing
underneath me.
I
press my hips harder into his and pump harder, harder, harder. When he groans long
and low, my balls tighten and with an almost painful surge, my cock empties between
us.
It
takes a while before either of us can speak.
It
was the fifth day of Christmas three more times that day.
December 19th. On the sixth
day of Christmas...
Monday
mornings are filled with planning meetings, progress meetings and team meetings.
I barely even have time for lunch.
I
ask Rachel to grab me a sandwich I can eat at my desk, and imply she'd be most kind
if she could put this – I hold up a neatly wrapped box – on Cameron's desk.
She
grins and skips into his empty office, placing the present, no doubt, perfectly
positioned on his desk.
I
get lost in product design and phone calls, and I don't see Cameron walk into
his office.
I
turn to see him through the glass walls, sitting at his desk holding his
already unwrapped gift in his hand.
He
looks up at me and grins. I can see his eyebrows lift mischievously, and I chuckle.
I then have to explain to the set designer I'm talking to on the phone, that I wasn't laughing
at him.
I
watch Cameron as he wraps the expensive gold silk tie around his wrist, holding
it up to show me.
Smiling,
I shake my head telling him no.
He
pouts, and this time I cover the phone when I chuckle.
Then
Cameron slips it around his neck, and I nod yes.
He
knows it's expensive. He knows quality when he sees it.
He
pulls it from around his neck and gently folds it, placing it back in the box. Then
he looks at me through the glass walls and smiles, suddenly shy.
It's
then I notice Rachel is standing in my office watching our silent conversation,
and Cameron's embarrassed.
She
giggles at me, and I grin at her.
"You're
so in love," she says, sighing dramatically.
Yes.
Yes,
I am.
20th December. On the seventh
day of Christmas...
Work
on Wednesday is hellish. We both finish up around seven; the office is almost
empty, and I find myself sitting on his desk, waiting for him to wrap things up.
He
groans tiredly, stretching his neck from side to side. "What did you want
for dinner?"
I
smile at him. "Aren't you forgetting something?"
He
stops and stares for a moment, so I prompt him. "On the seventh day of Christmas..."
I pull out the small rectangular wrapped box from my breast pocket.
A
slow smile spreads across his face. "I did forget, yes," he admits.
"It's been a helluva day."
I
hand him the present, waiting for him to open it.
He
smiles wistfully. "I can't believe you're doing this."
"Doing
what?"
"This,"
he says, holding up his gift. "The whole twelve days."
"Just
open it," I tell him. I know it's outlandish or even corny, but I want to
spoil him.
He
opens it slowly. It's pretty obvious from the shape of the box that it's a pen.
But when he opens it to find what kind of pen it is, his head jerks up to look
at me.
"Luc..."
I
smile. I know what he's about to say.
"Luc,
this is..."
Beautiful.
Extravagant.
Fucking
expensive for a pen.
"...this
is too much," he says quietly. He looks at the Montblanc pen in his hand, and
then back to me. His voice is quiet, "Why are you doing this?"
I
walk around to his chair, bend down and kiss his lips. I tell him,
"Because you're worth it," which is the truth.
Well,
a half truth. Because it's not like I can tell him the real reason.
He'll
know soon enough anyway. In four days... he'll know in four days.
21st December. On the eighth
day of Christmas...
Tobias
pokes his head in my office door. "Luc," he says with a smile.
"Can I see you for a second?"
"Sure,"
I answer. It could be one of a million and one reasons why he wants to see me,
but I'm suddenly really, really nervous.
I
sit in one of the chairs at Tobias' desk, facing him and the big gold Fletcher
arrow that graces the wall behind him.
He
glances around nervously. "Cameron's not here, is he?"
"No,"
I reply dubiously. "He's at Crawford's, going over last minute
details."
His
father smiles. "Good. This came today." He pulls out a large, white
envelope from his top drawer, and my heart beats double-time.
I
don't have to ask. I know what it is.
"Is
it all there?" I ask. My mouth is suddenly dry.
He
nods, grinning. "Did you want to take a look?"
I
shake my head, because I don't. Then I nod, because I do. But then I shake my head
because I don't. "No."
Tobias
laughs. "I'll hold it for safe keeping, shall I?"
I
nod and try a couple of times to swallow.
Ignoring
my obvious nervousness, he asks, "What gift are you up to today?"
He
knows what I'm doing. He knows everything.
"Um,
the leather passport holder," I tell him. "I gave it to him this
morning."
I
had a leather case etched with the initials CAF; his initials. Not extravagant,
though still somewhat pricey - but cheap by comparison to the other gifts but equally
as beautiful.
Tobias
smiles. Then he asks, "Do you think he suspects anything?"
I
shake my head. "Not a clue."
22nd December. On the ninth
day of Christmas...
This
time, I watch him as he paces his office floor with his phone to his ear. He's pissed
off about something, and whoever he's talking to is getting an earful.
I
love it when he's pissed off. It makes for fucking hot sex.
I'm
half tempted to just walk into his private bathroom and wait for him. He'd follow
me as soon as he could. Hell, he'd probably end the phone call right then and there
so I could suck him off.
In
fact, that's a fucking marvelous idea.
I
tell Rachel to hold all calls; I'm taking ten minutes.
And
I just walk straight into his office, walk right past him and straight into his
private bathroom.
He
watched me.
I
have no fucking doubt he watched me.
I
count the seconds. Twelve. That's all. Twelve seconds later, and he stalks into
his bathroom, locking the door behind him.
"I
don't think this is a good idea," he starts to say, but I'm already on my
knees in front of him. I unzip him, taking his cock into my mouth, and suck him
and pump him until his knees buckle and he shoots his load down my throat.
He
slumps against the wall, all dreamy-eyed and smirking. I stand up, lick my lips
and kiss him. He slides down, and when I think he's still all cum-woozy, he
unzips my pants, and my erection springs free.
"Does
giving me head make you hard?" he asks, looking up at me before he slips the
head of my cock between his lips.
I
moan. "Watching you cum, feeling you cum, sucking it right out of
you," I tell him with a groan. "That makes me hard."
It
feels so fucking good. The way he slides and sucks, and twirls his tongue.
Fuck.
I
grab his head with both hands, guiding, feeling, fucking.
I'm
so deep in his mouth, his throat, all of me. Every throbbing inch. Then he cups
my balls, and the room spins. I cum so hard.
So
hard.
So
fucking hard.
The
smug sonnava bitch is still smirking when we're re-dressed and straightened up,
sitting at his office desk.
"Feel
better?" I ask.
"Much
better," he says proudly. "Thank you."
Just
then there's a knock at the door. In walks a Fed-ex guy with a wooden crate looking
box in his hand. "Cameron Fletcher?"
I
look at Cameron.
He
looks at the delivery guy, then at me. "Ninth day of Christmas?"
The
guy puts the box on Cameron's desk, and Cameron in turn signs for the box. He waits
until we're alone before he opens the lid to reveal the 1983 and 1984 bottles of
wine.
His
eyes dart to mine, and I can see this gift has thrown him; the confusion is clear
in his eyes.
"It's
the years we were born," I tell him.
He
nods as though he understands that much, but doesn't really understand why I chose
them. "Dad has a cellar," he says. "We could house them
there."
"I
thought we could have them at Christmas dinner," I suggest, trying for nonchalance.
His
brow furrows for just a second, but then he shrugs. I'm thankfully saved by Rachel,
who interrupts to tell me my three o'clock meeting with Marcus from accounts is
about to start without me.
But
I spend the entire meeting distracted that he might know what's going on.
Sunday 23rd. On the tenth day
of Christmas...
It's
Friday before Christmas. We have a half day and a fully catered staff Christmas
lunch at the office. It hasn't really felt like Christmas, with all that's been
going on; I've been so distracted. But with the jovial atmosphere at lunch and
the well-wishes of a Merry Christmas and a few Christmas drinks, I'm in a much
more festive spirit.
Until
we get home.
And
I ask him if he wants his next present – his tenth day of Christmas present – and
he hesitates.
He
fucking hesitates.
He
looks at the small gift-wrapped box like it's gonna fucking bite him.
And
that's a festive mood killer right there.
He
looks hesitantly at his gift, like he's almost scared to open it.
It's
supposed to be good thing – no, a fucking great
thing.
"What's
wrong?" I ask, probably a little too rudely. But fuck it, this is
important.
He
shakes his head, quick to explain, "I'm just worried what I got you won't
ever be enough," he says sadly. "I mean, how can it compare with what
you've done?"
"That's
not why I'm doing this."
"Why
are you doing this?" he asks me
again, more serious this time.
Should
I tell him? Should I just ruin it all and fucking tell him?
I
can't. Two more days, that's all. I've just got to hold out for two more days.
No matter how much he pouts, begs and pleads, I have to bite my tongue.
Letting
my temper out won't help any matter, so I cup his face with my hand and kiss
him. "Just open your present."
He
sighs, then slowly opens the small box. When he sees the matching gold cufflinks,
his eyes well with tears. "Oh Luc, they're beautiful."
"They
have the Hensley family crest on them," I tell him with a shrug. "Seeing
though everything I ever see has the Fletcher arrow on it, I thought you might
like them if they had my namesake."
He
nods, and I think for a moment his tears might fall, but they don't. He pulls
me into his arms and he just holds me. He wraps himself around me and holds me
so damn tight, like I'm some precious little thing he doesn't ever want to let
go of.
24th December. On the
eleventh day of Christmas...
I
hang up the phone from talking to my mom, when I hear Cameron. "Mom,"
he gripes into the phone. "I wear suits every day. I don't want to get dressed
up for Christmas day."
"Cameron
Anthony Fletcher," I hear Cynthia bark down the phone, playing her part perfectly.
"Please do not argue with me. I want family photos, and you will be dressed
for the occasion."
Cameron
sighs and rolls his eyes at me. I throw myself onto the sofa next to him, and
his fingers automatically find their way into my hair. I listen as Cynthia lays
down the law. Cameron huffs and sighs, resigned.
When
he finally disconnects the call, he asks me, "How was your mom?"
"She's
okay," I tell him with a smile.
"You
know," he says suggestively, "we could always go to Texas for
Christmas. If we left now..."
I
laugh. "We agreed; your family this year, my family next year."
He
sighs again. "With a bit of luck, we'll get snowed in and won't be able to
leave the house."
I
laugh. "I can just picture your mother behind the wheel of a snow plough."
He
snorts and snuggles down onto the sofa, and I lay back against him. His arms fold
around me. I take his hands in mine, and he kisses down the side of my neck.
"Who
knows, babe," I tell him. "You might just have a good day
tomorrow."
He
mumbles, still kissing my neck. "I'd have a better day if I stay here with
you."
I
laugh, but then he bites my neck, sucking the skin between his lips.
I
pull his face from my skin; the last thing I need is a hickey on my neck for tomorrow.
"None of that thank you, Mister."
"Why?"
he questions softly, kissing the side of my neck. "We don't have to go to work
for a week. No one will see it."
"Mmm,
you can mark me anywhere, just not there," I tell him. "But about that
week off," I hedge. "Do you want today's present? It is the eleventh
day of Christmas..."
He
falls back against the cushion. "Is this one ludicrously expensive?"
I
grin. "Well...yes," I admit. There's no point in lying. He groans, so
I'm quick to explain, "But this one is for both of us. Not just you."
His
brow flinches, so I kiss him hard, grin at him and tell him not to move a fucking
muscle. I jump up and come back five seconds later with his next gift. I place
the thin parcel on his chest, plonk myself at the opposite end of the sofa and pick
up his feet.
"For
both of us?" he asks, tentatively opening the wrapping.
I
pull his stripy sock off and bring his toes to my mouth as I look at him.
"Both of us," I nod to him before taking his ring toe into my mouth. He's
used to me sucking on, biting and licking his feet now. It even turns him on, especially
when I bite the perfect arch of his foot.
He
wiggles his toes to get my attention, and I look at him. He's holding the two tickets,
looking at me. "Two tickets to Whistler and a week at the Four
Seasons?" he asks incredulously. "Jesus! How much did that cost?
No," he stops. "Don't tell me. I don't want to know."
I
laugh at him, and he shakes his head, exasperated. "For a week? Luc, you
can't ski!"
I
grin and bite his toe. "You have a week to teach me," I tell him.
"If we make it out of bed."
He
shakes his head, like he truly can't believe it. He smiles slowly. "Really? A week? Just you and me?"
I
laugh at him. Then he reads the departure information. "Our flight leaves
at seven AM after Christmas Day! How the hell are you going to be up and organized that early?"
I
gasp at him, pretending to be offended and drop his foot. I quickly snatch the two
tickets out of his hands and lean over him. "If you don't like your present..."
He
laughs. "I love it," he admits, leaning up and pecking my lips.
"It's ridiculously expensive." He slides his hands over my ass,
bringing my hips to meet his. "But a week alone with you is perfect."
Throwing
the tickets onto the coffee table, I settle my weight on him, and his hands
trail up to my face. He pulls my chin between his thumb and forefinger.
"That's
the last gift, yes?"
I
snort. "Since when does the twelve days of Christmas end on the eleventh
day?"
He
sighs. "Luc, you've spent far too much money already!"
I
smile at him. "Tomorrow's gift cost next to nothing."
He
stares at me like he doesn't believe me.
"It's
true!" I tell him. "And it's by far the best yet."
25th December. On the twelfth
day of Christmas...
I
get out of the shower to find a very handsome Cameron looking at his gifts on
the dresser. He's dressed in a charcoal suit with the naughty elf socks I gave
him on the first day, the gold tie I gave him on the sixth day and the
cufflinks I gave him on the tenth day.
"Watcha
doin'?" I ask him as I start to get dressed.
"Just
looking over your gifts," he says quietly. He says nothing else, just
waits for me to dress, and when he fixes my tie for me, he says, "Can I
give you your present before we get to Mom and Dad's?"
He
seems a little nervous. Which is odd, because I expected to feel nervous today,
but I don't. Not one little bit.
"Sure
you can," I tell him, curious as to what he could be nervous about.
He
holds out a small blue box; a light blue, Tiffany's box. He takes my hand,
lifting it to place the box in my palm. I open it to find not one, but two
white gold rings.
"I
know I acted all weird when we talked about getting rings," he explains
quickly. "I didn't want to think of the toe ring as anything but perfect,
because it is perfect. But I know you wanted proper rings and only dropped the
subject because I acted like an ass-"
He's
still rambling on, and I'm still staring at the rings in my hand.
They
are so fucking perfect.
"Luc,
please say something."
I
look up at him, and I know the tears in my eyes surprise him. He thinks I don't
like them, but I can't really explain just how fucking perfect they really are,
so I kiss him instead.
It's
a hard kiss, a pressing-too-tight kiss that tells him I love his present to me.
To
us.
"So
perfect," is about all I can say.
He
blinks, unsure. "You like them?"
"Love
them," I say, still fighting tears. "So, so very perfect."
He
cups my cheek. "Oh, babe," he whispers. "I didn't mean to upset
you."
I
laugh at my stupid tears, close the box and slip it into my pocket. "Come
on, we can't be late."
He's
obviously surprised I didn't put the rings on our fingers, but says nothing.
Not
that I really give him time to.
I
grab the pen I gave to him on the seventh day, slip it into his breast pocket without
a word of explanation and hand him the two bottles of wine and the two vinyl
records, telling him to put them in the box of gifts for his family.
I
tell him I'll grab our coats and meet him downstairs. When I slip into the walk-in-robe,
I slip today's present – the very best of presents – into my breast pocket.
I'm
still not nervous.
Even
in the car on the way to his parent's house, I'm not nervous. I want this. I know
he does. He tells me all the time. He just doesn't know about it happening today.
It's
snowing, and it's a beautiful Christmas day.
And
it's about to become a whole lot more beautiful.
We
pull up in front of his mom and dad's, grab the bottles of wine and climb out
of the car. He's a step ahead of me when he gets to the front door. "Cameron,
stop!"
He
turns to look at me, and I pull us closer to the door, out of the wind. I take
the box of presents and put them on the doorstep. "I need to give you
today's present."
"Now?
Out here?" he asks, looking at me like I'm crazy. His hair is blowing, and
his cheeks and nose are tinged pink from the cold. "It's freezing fucking
cold out here!"
I
nod. "Yes, now. Yes, out here. You need to read this first."
I
reach into my inside breast pocket and pull out a folded piece of paper. It's thick,
heavy, expensive paper, but that's all it is; a folded piece of paper.
I
hold it up between us, but before I give it to him, I tell him, "On the
twelfth day of Christmas..."
He
takes the paper, looking at me cautiously.
And
then he opens it.
And
he reads it.
And
I'm still not nervous.
I
fucking should be. But I'm not.
His
eyes go wide, and he stares at me. He pulls back his sleeve to look at his watch, then he stares at me.
I
nod. "Twelve o'clock."
He
opens his mouth; I think he's trying to say my name. He swallows and blinks, reading
and re-reading the piece of paper.
Only
it's not just a piece of paper.
It's
a wedding invitation.
To
our wedding.
Finally
he speaks. "Right now?"
"Only
if you want to," I tell him. "If you don't want to, then none of
what's behind that door has to happen. We'll just have a wonderful Christmas
lunch with our family, and we can work out details later," I tell him.
"But you've been saying 'I'd marry you tomorrow if I could' since we got
engaged." I take his hand, his freezing cold hand, and look into his
still-wide eyes. "I'm not asking you to marry me tomorrow, Cameron. I'm
asking you to marry me today."
And
then, so fast I hardly see him move, he picks up the box of gifts, grabs my hand
and drags me inside. Then the box is gone, and he's pulling my coat off, just throwing
it somewhere before he's dragging me through
the double doors into the formal lounge.
Where
his family is waiting, where my Momma is waiting; all with smiles a mile wide.
The
minister, a rather round woman I presume to be Siobhan – who I've only spoken
to over the phone - is also waiting, smiling, with a book in her hand. Cameron drags
me toward her.
And
so the ceremony begins.
I
couldn't tell you what Siobhan said. Cameron and I just have another one of
those 'just us' moments for the entire service. All I can do is stare at him;
at the love, the wonder, the complete fucking adoration in his eyes.
I'd
told her we wouldn't say our own vows. It's not like I could explain how one of
us had no fucking clue he was getting married, and how I'd forged his
signatures on the application forms. Well, I didn't...I couldn't get it to look
right. Tobias did it, first go.
It's
not until she asks for rings that I remember what I'm up here for. Rings. Rings.
Rings. Patting down my pockets, I
pull out the rings Cameron gave to me not even an hour ago.
His
face lights up. "The rings!"
I
nod and laugh. "I told you they were fucking perfect."
Then
I remember the minister. I look at her, apologetically. "Sorry." I'm
not struck down by lightning for swearing in front of her, so I presume I'm
still good with God.
Cameron
chuckles. "You planned all
this, but no rings?"
I
roll my eyes at him. "Every time I tried to mention getting new rings you
got all pissy."
Oh,
yeah. The minister. I apologize again. "Sorry."
I
take the rings from the box and hand one to Cameron. He takes my ring finger on
my left hand and slides the ring on, and then I do the same to him.
And
it just strikes me, right then and there, how beautiful, how significant it is.
He's
wearing my ring.
And
the words just tumble out. "That's so hot."
Ugh.
Again, with the minister. I look at her. "Sorry."
Someone
giggles. Cynthia, I think. I turn to face our little crowd watching us exchange
rings, but Cameron grabs me and kisses me. I don't think we were up to that
part yet, but I'm certainly not going to argue.
Then
Siobhan mumbles something beside us about 'this civil union', and I think it's a
done deal. I laugh into his kiss and pull away from him, only for Siobhan to
roll her eyes and smile, telling us, "You may now kiss."
So
he kisses me again.
And
when we're finally pulled apart, we're pulled into warm embraces and warm congratulations.
I'm smiling so fucking hard my face hurts.
The
first to hug me is my momma. It's fierce and squeezy like all 'momma hugs' should
be. And when she finally lets go of me, Cynthia is finished with Cameron and is
waiting for her turn. She's been working on her deep-breathing to tame the urge
to tackle-hug, and right now, she's about to burst.
I
grin at her, and she throws her arms around me. She tells me through her tears how
her family is complete now. How Ben has his Ashley, and now Cameron has me. Life
is exactly as it should be.
I
tell her the only thing better than having one momma, is having two. And then Cameron
interrupts, telling me not to make his mother cry.
He
kisses the side of my head just as my Momma joins us.
"I
tried to get the minister to say 'married' or 'wedding' or 'husband' but she wouldn't
do it," Momma says with a disdainful nod toward her intended target and loud
enough for Siobhan to hear. "I tell ya one thing," Momma says,
"when two people stand before friends and God, exchange rings and say
forever, it's a wedding."
I
give Siobhan an apologetic smile, and she grins at me. I smile at Cynthia and
kiss my momma's cheek. "Momma, it doesn't matter," I tell her.
"It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks; politicians, governments, or
the State. What matters is what I think," I slide my arm around Cameron's waist,
"what we
think." I look to both our mothers,
and tell them, "Cameron might be a 'domestic partner' in their eyes, but
he's a husband to me."
And
both mothers start to cry.
Siobhan
interrupts, telling us we need to sign some papers to make it official.
When
Cameron pulls the pen from his pocket, he looks straight at me. "You
thought of everything, didn't you?"
I
smile again. Or still; I haven't stopped smiling yet.
"The
pen, the cufflinks, the tie," he says.
I
correct him, "The LP for our song, the wine for toasts, the passport
holder, the week away…our honeymoon."
"It
was all a lead up for today," he says. He shakes his head at me. "It
never crossed your mind I might not want to get married today?"
I
snort. "Not at all. Never a doubt, Baby."
We
sign the paperwork, making this Domestic Partnership, this marriage, legal, and Ben declares it's
time for the first dance.
The
scratchy sound of the vinyl record starts, and the lounge room clears to become
our dance floor. When Roberta Flack's soulful voice fills the air, singing about
the first time I ever saw your face, Cameron's grip on me tightens. We're supposed
to be dancing the waltz or something, but we don't move. Not really.
With
one hand on my lower back and one hand at the back of my neck, he holds me so
fucking tight. We sway a little, and his breath and his lips are right at my
ear.
And
right there, in front of our closest family, they see inside this 'just us' moment.
And
when Louis Armstrong sings about what a wonderful world, others join us on the
lounge room dance floor. No one cuts in, no one dares. And Cameron doesn't let go
of me.
I
whisper into the skin just below his ear that I love him, that I love him so,
so much. "Oh, and Cameron?"
"Mmm?"
"Merry
Christmas."
I
can feel him grin against my neck. "Merry Christmas."
~The very, very end~
Thanks for reading! Have a Merry Christmas!!